i cant forget you.. :(

semua udah berlalu.. kita udah menjalani hidup kita masing".. tanpa ada yang mengisi satu sama lain..
tapi kenapa aku g' bisa nglupain qamu smpe' skrg ?? knp ?? knp ??
aku udah berusaha ngilangin bayangan.Moe dari idup.Quu .. but rasanya berat banget untuk nglakuin itu..
aku tetp g' bisa ngebenci qmo .. aku masiih saiank qmo ... aku masiih keingetan tentang firts date qt .. kata" swaktu qmo nembak aku .. ya allah.. aku bener" udah gila..!!
tiap kali ada qmo.. aku berusaha menghindar dari qmo.. tapi menghindar ato g' .. prsaan itu malah smkin kuat.. kau g' bisa jauh dari qmo.. aku cinta ama qmo ...
aku bisa nrima kenyataan bhwa aku buka milik qmo lagi..
aku bisa nrima itu..
tpi hatiku hancurr...

tuhan.. iiang baik.. iiang udah ngasii aku idup iiang berkucukupan..please... aku mohon bgt... bikin aku lupa ama fafan.. bikin aku bisa nglupain diaa.. aku g' kuat kaiag gini teruss... aku masii saiiank diaa.. tpi aku g' bisa milikin diaa lagii ...
log diaa emang jodoh.Quu .. please.. jangan jauhin hati ku ama diaa.. buat qt bersatu lagi .. tpi log emang dia bukan jdoh.Quu .. jangan buat aku terus"an gini.. buat aku bisa ikhlas nrima diaa sebagai temen.Quu .. g' lebihh dari itu.. ya allah.. smoga prasaan.Quu ini sma ama diaa.. log emang diaa udah nglupain aku.. buat aku bisa nglupain diaa.. gitu juga' sebalik.nA..
please ya allah ...

miley cyrus - goodbye

I can honestly say you've been on my mind
Since I woke up today, up today
I look at your photograph all the time
These memories come back to life
And I don't mind

I remember when we kissed
I still feel it on my lips
The time that you danced with me
With no music playing

But I remember those simple things
I remember 'til I cry
But the one thing I wish I'd forget
The memory I wanna forget
Is goodbye

I woke up this morning and played are song
And throwing my tears, I sang along
I picked up the phone and then put it down
'Cause I know I'm wasting my time
And I don't mind

I remember when we kissed
I still feel it on my lips
The time that you danced with me
With no music playing

But I remember the simple things
I remember 'til I cry
But the one thing I wish I'd forget
The memory I wanna forget

Suddenly my cell phone's blowing up
With your ringtone
I hesitate but answer it anyway
You sound so alone
And I'm surprised to hear you say

You remember when we kissed
You still feel it on your lips
The time that you danced with me
With no music playing

You remember the simple things
We talked 'til we cried
You said that your biggest regret
The one thing you wish I'd forget
Is saying goodbye, saying goodbye
Ooh, goodbye

hold on - jonas brothers

We don't have time left to regret, hold on
And we'll take more than common sense, hold on
So stop your wondering, take a stand, hold on
'Cause there's more to life than just to live, hold on

'Cause an empty room can be so loud
There's too many tears to drown them out
So hold on, hold on
Hold on, hold on

One single smile, a helping hand, hold on
It's not that hard to be a friend, hold on
So don?'t give up, stand 'til the end, hold on
'Cause there's more to life than just to live, hold on

'Cause an empty room can be so loud
There's too many tears to drown them out
So hold on, hold on
Hold on, hold on

When you love someone and they break your heart
Don't give up on love, have faith, restart
Just hold on, hold on
Hold on, hold on

When it falls apart and you're feeling lost
All your hope is gone, don't forget to hold on
Hold on!

'Cause an empty room can be so loud
There's too many tears to drown them out
So hold on, hold on
Hold on, hold on

When you love someone and they break your heart
Don't give up on love, have faith, restart
Just hold on, hold on
Hold on, hold on

'Cause an empty room can be so loud
There's too many tears to drown them out
So hold on, hold on
Hold on, hold on

When you love someone and they break your heart
Don't give up on love, have faith, restart
Just hold on, hold on
Hold on, hold on

cacth me ~ demi lovato

Before I fall too fast
Kiss me quick, but make it last
So I can see how badly this will hurt me
When you say goodbye

Keep it sweet, keep it slow
Let the future pass, and don't let go
But tonight I could fall too soon
Into this beautiful moonlight

But you're so hypnotizing
You've got me laughing while I sing, you've got me smiling in my sleep
And I can see this unraveling
Your love is where I'm falling, but please don't catch me

See this heart won't settle down
Like a child running scared from a clown
I'm terrified of what you do
My stomach screams just when I look at you

Run far away so I can breathe
Even though you're far from suffocating me
I can't set my hopes too high
'Cause every hello ends with a goodbye

But you're so hypnotizing
You've got me laughing while I sing, you've got me smiling in my sleep
And I can see this unraveling
Your love is where I'm falling, but please don't catch me

So now you see why I'm scared
I can't open up my heart without a care
But here I go, it's what I feel
And for the first time in my life I know it's for real

But you're so hypnotizing
You've got me laughing while I sing, you've got me smiling in my sleep
And I can see this unraveling
Your love is where I'm falling so please don't catch me

If this is love, please don't break me
I'm giving up so just catch me

paramandi.... impian yang g' pernah aku impiin..

hmm... agustus nii aku sibug bgt...
maybe au ketinggalan banyaaakkk bgt mapel...
peer ajah au nyontek temen" .. hehehe ...
well.. itu smua terbayar ama juara 2 iiang diraih ama grup drum band.Quu DERAP NADA MUSLIM...
susah percya rasanya.. log diliat dari latihan qt iiang g' serius sama sekali...
ampe' para alumni pun ngebantuin qt..
well.. gitapati.Na dapet juara 1.. ama paramanandi juga' juara 1 ...

ngomong" tentang paramanandi
jujur.. au g' pernah pengen ada di posisi ituu..
di drum abnd.. au lebih pengen jadi iiang megang senar drum.. aneh kan ...!!
iiahh itulah akuu... bermodalkna tinggi badan iiang cukup menjanjikan... au kepilih jadi paramanandi di drum band sekolah...
impian iiang g' pernah au impiin sebelumnya.. ato labih tepatnya.. g' pernah au pengen...
iia,,, au emang setengah atii siihh dijadiin paramanandi...
gg' tauk npaahh... au lebih nyaman jadi brass ..

hmm.. taon dpan g' lagii deh ....

sendiri lagii...

au jomblo skrg..
g' ada lagii iiang manggil au honeybee.. mamah ...
iaaahh... au sendiri skrg...
kita ptuzz coz hal iiang sangat geje.. but i know.. this better for me and he ..
hmm.. ditanya ikhlas ato g' ...
jawabanya pasti g' ..!!
ditanya masiihh saiiank ato g' .. jawabanya of course yes..!!!

niyy auu tunjukin detik" terakhir kita sama"...
lwadd blez"an massage di fb ...

fafan= Ckrng maw qm gmn, gpp ngmn aj !!??
bkanx aq g brani, bkane aq takudt, tapi aq menghormati ortumu kalo mreka emng bner2 gag stuju am hub qt...

tapi asal qmu tau, aq masih saiiiank bgt sma qmu... di saat uda mulai ada kesempatan qt ketemu, eh koq malah gni....

aq saiiank qmu va, kalo emang qm mau kita putus, aq g tau harus jawab gmn... T.T
My Life Would Suck Without You..
I ♥ U 4ever...

blz secepatx.... b'cause i need u...

saiia = arghhh... au bingung... kita kok jadi gene siy??
gmna iio?? au ndri gg tauk hubungan qt mo diapain...
au jga' gg' rela log hbungan qt ptus g2 ajah...
kalo' qamu mau sabar... iia qt jalanin ajah dulu... secara biasa ajah.... aku g' akan maksa qmu wat tetep maksain hbungan kita putus ato tetp jalan... log qamu emang mau qt putus.. okay... kalo' qt tetep jalan..iia gpp....

i still ♥ u honey.... believe it....

fafan = aq gag tahan kalo ktmu kamu, perasaanqu berantakan..... sbnere aq jja gag mau ikut dbx mts tapi maw gmn lagii....... aq lho hruz gmn...?? sbnere masalahnya it p?

saiia = hedeh -_-
terserah deh skrg... semua.Na tergantung qamuu.... kita putus ato g'.. itu terserah qamu.....

fafan = aq gag mau, tapi itu harus... T.T

saiia = okay.. kita putus..!!! fine!!!!!?

fafan= sumpah dalam ati aq gag mao, aq msh bner'' C.I.N.T.A.
but what should i do kalo keadaan gag ngijinin qt bersatu... :(

saiia = so how??? qamu pikir au ikhlas apahh ???

fafan = cp yg bisa jawab, cp yg bza mutusin, ??????
aq g tow,!! knp ? knp? knp? knp???????????? haruz gni keadaanx...
katanya qmu cinta... katanya kamu saiiank... :(

saiia = lahhhh ?? sekarang kalo' diterusin qamu kuat?? hah ?? aqqu yakin g'...!!!
au bisa ajah berthan.... tapi gg' tau' log ma qamu.Na

fafan= knp hruz g kuat...??? mank mw da p?

saiia = gpp.....
sekarang intinya gmna ??????

fafan = percuma kalo masiii pcrn tp msh diburu-buru..

saiia = whatever..
brrti qamu pengen.Na qt putus...
okay...!!! T.T

fafan= Cph bilang....? aq g prnh pgn kaiia gt..!1

saiia = lha truz mau.naa gmana ...
aq kan jdi bngung ...
ntar klo aq ambil k'putuzan sndiri, ntar qm yg gag enak ????

fafan = serah km...!!!
saiia = thx!!!

next.. semua berlanjut ke bagian berikut.Na

saiia = fan..... i just wanna say to you....
goodbye....
it was an amazing 2 months
have an amazing life...
i remain you as my friend ... T.T

fafan = sama aq jja...
tp nppa kuq haruz gni...
aq sedih tauk, aq lemes, aq frustasi, aq strss.. berat bgt rasanya idup nie... T.T

saiia= kalo' ajah au diijinin ngulang smua.Na sekalii lagii ajah... tapi mungkin hal i2 mustahil bgt,,,

fafan = masih g ada ya harapan b uata qu?

saiia = i dont know....
smoga ajah masiih ada.... :)

fafan = But.... rsax aq g bsa lepas dri qmu? T.T

saiia = eem,, au g' bisa nglupain qamuu,, sumpehh dah!! T.T

fafan = So do i... :(

saiia = udahlah,, lupain ajah,, mav log au ngembaliin kalung dari qmu,, au cma' gg' mau kebeban ama prsaan masiih saiiank.qu ke qmu,, :(

fafan = lha bebanx qmu kasihin ke aq skrng... :(

saiia = bukan.e gtuu tapi au gak mau log prsaan nie mlah "menghantui" aquu mluk,, tiap kali ktmu ma qmu au lo rsa.na pgen nangis,,,

saiia = hmmm ,, terserah deeh skrg,, au bingung ama prsaan.quu skrg,,,

fafan = iaa udah lupain aj aqu!, orang qta putus ya krn hal yang super GEJE

saiia = hu.umbz ,, thx ,, <>

fafan = thx jga, thx 4 everything!!

saiia = tapiii,, qt massiiih bisa tmenan kann ???

fafan = knapa gag?

saiia = okay... thx friend ... ^^

fafan = sama2!

welll.. itulah akhir dari hubungan gw ama diaa.. sediihh juga' iiaa.
log gw leh bkin pengakuan.. jujur gw lomb bisa nglupain fafan.. ampe' skrg.. kata temen gw .. gw harus brani ngambil resiko.. berani mencintai.. juga' berani melupakan.. but berat rasanya...
tapi... gw skrg muali belajar nrima kenyataan log diaa udah bukan milik gw lagii..
gw juga' smpet mo ngejadiin temen gw sbgai pelarian lohh.. hehehe..
tpi g' jadi coz gw tauk.. gmna sakitnya dijadiin pelarian ma orang lain...

hmm.. sekrg gw brusaha bangkit dari keterpurukan nie.. goodbye my honeybee.. i remain you as my friend... :')

cita cita quu ...

hi guys... udah lama g' ngeblogging ney..
emm.. lagi pengen cerita tentang cita.cita.quu ney...
btw skrg udah saat.Na aqqu mulai belajar serius.. emang siy aqqu agak ketinggalan coz lthan drum band muluk .. >,<
tapi kan aqqu ikudd ekskul ipa.. jadi lumyanlah bisa mengejar ketinggalan.Quu
bicara tentang sma.Quu nanti.. bnyak siy iiang aqqu pengen .. mulai dari dalam kota ampe' luar kota ... nie aqqu sebutin satu persatu iia..
1.smk negeri 01 tuban (stm)
2.smk telkom sandhy putra malang
3.sma 5 surabaya (smala)
4.sma negeri 2 tuban (smada)
5.man 01 lamongan
6.sma negeri 01 tuban (smansa)
7.sma darul ulum 2 jombang (bppt rsbi/bppt unggulan)
n' aqqu mupeng bgt pengen masugg smk telkom sandhy putra malang..
maka dari itu aqqu mulai skrg nekuni matematika,fisika, n' bhsa inggris.. iiang jadi materi test.Na disana...

semoga do.A quu tercpai deh.. amiinnnnn